For the past few days I wasn’t feeling much motivation to do my work. I have started to feel the pressure now after a month and a half of being at home, since I left my full time job to pursue my dream/ my purpose. Up until now I have been happy but slowly the pressure is mounting and I am starting to feel the stress a little bit. It’s usually good to have a little pressure, a little stress for me to work diligently, with focus and attention. But it has started getting me down so I thought what could I do to improve.
I realised that my desk has been very cluttered to the extent that I have not been using my desk at all in our spare room and using the bed to do my work. I spent the whole day cleaning my desk and only found time to write now.
I felt good as I can see all my books and papers and files lined up in a certain order.
I have to say I have always had a messy desk, whether in work or at home and I know soon my desk is going to be messy again.
Actually I would love to see it messy. I will tell you why?
Einstein once said “if a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind of what, then is, an empty desk a sign”
I used to share my office with another colleague for years and there was absolute contrast between her desk and mine. She was a very tidy person, never left anything on top of her desk when she left on the other hand I had tons of papers all over my desk. Piles of them with no order including all kind of documents on the walls. I didn’t care at all at that time. I just wanted to get the job done. I was doing many things and I did make a lot of progress in my career and my research at that time.
Every now and then when I used to stare at her side of the desk while leaving the room and wondered if I could be tidy like my colleague but that thought used to be just a fleeting thought, as I didn’t have time to think or feel bad about anything else. Once I was a little embarrassed when I got a little note about her tidying up my side as well.
Thankfully not my desk.
Now I wonder how hard it must have been for her to work with me in the same room with me being so messy.
Today when I searched on line, I found out that it is good to have a cluttered desk, it is a sign of genius.Ha Ha.. I know I am no genius but all I know is that if I am focusing on something then I am not thinking about anything else and for me messy desk is more of a sign of a person who is doing their work with so much focus and attention that they don’t want to spend their time worrying about being messy or not looking good but the fact that they are making progress everyday in the pursuit of their goal keeps them focused and happy.
I can’t wait to see my desk be messy again, for me that would be a sign of me working with my full focus and not having time to think about things that really don’t matter……
